The Turning Point..........

This might be the turning point of my life.... The crucial stage where I have to make the decision about my career.... What do I do??? I could either start up as an earnest contender or accept the defeat and consider myself a loser..... Whatever decision I make, ultimately I have to face the consequences.....

Right now, I feel frustrated... dejected... feel like running away... running away from life... free my mind for a few moments.... may be few hours.... may be few days... may be few months... I don't know.... I'm not sure...

But I have a goal to achieve...... I'm on a target to reach by the end of this month..... I keep reminding myself these words..... But I feel like I'm not ready yet.... I guess there's still something lacking in me... may be its called 'seriousness'.....

"Don't Worry Man!! You can easily make it into K*****"... this is what people around me keep saying to me..... Losers!!! How could they be so sure about my caliber... Even I'm not sure about myself....

Time's running out... and I need to make up my mind.... Do or Die.... At some corner of my mind, I believe I can get this through.... I just have to try to be more optimistic and push that "I'm not ready yet" thing to the corner...

Despite all the flaws I have, my girl still believes in me... She says to me, "Frustrated & Dejected you may be right now..... but these two things are the parents of zeal.... When they reach their heights, your zeal will burn within you.... Let them grow more and more so that the zeal in you burns your desire and makes you reach your target...." She believes I can win... She knows what I am....

I think, finally, the time has come to put these feelings of desperation aside.... Start what I had to start... work towards it... give my best shot... and then just sit back and watch what it would finally yield...

This... is really Weird !!!

This is my very first post ever. I feel a little weird coz I've gone bonkers about this. I ain't sure what this feeling really is. I can't get thoughts in my mind - what to jot down?? Now I feel I'm really bad at this as I can't even find words to fill in.

Lemme give it a shot by letting you know something about myself...

• I enjoy talking over issues or helping to solve other's problems.
• In fact, I have a real knack for problem solving when there is a concrete solution to be found.
• I am the reserved type and hate to be a showboat.
• I may not always say much but when I do speak, I often manage to offer useful and thought-provoking insights.